On Surrender.

Can I just say "I surrender" and it be enough.

I've heard multiple times lately that the only way I am going to find freedom is by releasing and letting go. 

It's by packing light, if anything at all.

It's by throwing myself so deeply into a thing that I would be willing to die for it.

Be Still and Know that I am God.

I've tried sitting and waiting for a voice.

5 minutes later I'm up again.

We count the hours.

We count how long it's going to take for something to be over.

We beg for a program so we can track when the wedding or event will be over.

We have not learned to wait. 

There have been times when I've said it. 

And felt like i meant it.

But, actions speak much louder than words.

I can't say one thing--and act in another way.

So, No God. 

I haven't yet surrendered.

And I don't want to wait for something dramatic to happen in order for me to do so.

I just wanna do it. 

So, God.

I surrender. 

I guess it's hard to know something you don't know.  It's time for me to learn. To grow in intimacy with the Father on another level. Then--stillness will be natural. Because, well. I'd literally KNOW. Knowing has three parts:

1. What the Word Says

2. What He's done in our lives

3. By direction of the Holy Spirit (John 14:26)

I've been living too long on a "I know-bout-God" type faith and not an I-Know-Him. Yes, Grace is enough.

But Who I Am is more. 

Sources: https://www.allaboutfollowingjesus.org/be-still-and-know-that-i-am-god.htm

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